I think I may actually be exhausted at being BLACK. I'm speaking honestly from the heart and don't care for kudos or criticism. One of the most exhausting things about being BLACK is other folks opinions about how BLACK you are or aren't. I've been part of such discussions, and they're tiresome. I don't care what anyone thinks, and I owe you absolutely nothing for my creation or existence.
I love being a Black man, and don't want to be anything else. I know I'm not racist and love all people. I know being "Pro-Black" doesn't make me "anti-white". I know wanting "Black Power" doesn't mean I want power over others. I know all non-Black people aren't evil or out to get me. I get tired of having to qualify my statements so folks won't feel threatened, shunned, or slighted because I'm Black.
Certain folks thrive on constant conflict & controversy to make themselves feel relevant, and much of that comes from the reality of racism. I'm not afraid of conflict or controversy, but wish I didn't have to deal with them at all. Racism is real, but it is a pawn to a greater evil we haven't experienced yet. Because people are too wicked to stop bigotry, racism & White Supremacy we're unaware of our transition to classism; that's worst and eliminates color lines.
It is a labor of love, but an exhausting one, to learn & teach on Black Empowerment, and balance that with my Christian faith; especially when I've experienced racism in the Church by white believers who claim to be Christians, along with being attacked in the Black Community by ultra pro-blacks because of my faith. For just a brief moment I found peace when I went back to my childhood. I was still black but none of my friends seemed to notice or care, and I didn't really think about it myself. Truthfully, I really wish I didn't have to think about it now and I could just be. ~ Mr. Blaktastic
PSALM 55:6-7; "And I said, Oh that I had wings like a dove! for then would I fly away, and be at rest. Lo, then would I wander far off, and remain in the wilderness. Selah."